Twenty Years in the Holler

It was twenty years ago today
That I moved onto this land to stay

Ahem … my apologies to the Beatles. It was actually twenty years ago this year that I moved onto this land to stay. In 2004 I drove from Calgary to Cape Breton with an old travel trailer in tow and Tundra riding shotgun. I’d quit my job in April, but a car accident and subsequent complications delayed our departure. I finally hit the road in August and left the bright lights of the big city behind, driving over 5000 kms to the new land.

It was a big move: from Calgary to Cape Breton, from west to east, from city to country, from my old familiar hometown to my brand new land. So I’m going to do something a bit different with this blog and celebrate this anniversary with an overview of my first twenty years here in Highland Holler. It was so long ago that some of these photos are photos of snapshots, so please excuse the fuzzies. And click on the small pics to see full size.

My Chevy Silverado ‘Roadeo’ and the travel trailer I hauled from Calgary to Cape Breton.

Tundra and I made our first home in the 15′ foot travel trailer I’d hauled out from Calgary. It was small but cozy and portable. The new land was on a back road with easy access to a gated field, so that’s where I first set up camp. My neighbours were kind and welcoming, but curious as to why I locked the field gate behind me every time I went anywhere. It took a while for this city kid a while to realize I could leave that gate wide open.

I bought myself a chainsaw and – very slowly but without losing any limbs – opened up a wood road blocked by piles of felled spruce meant to keep vehicles out. Then I shifted my trailer onto that road, moving deeper into the woods and closer to the pond.

Our travel trailer home after I moved it onto the old wood road. That’s my blue kayak in front.

It was a bit scary, giving up my comfortable, secure life to move so far away and into the unknown, but I recall some of the magic moments while we lived in that trailer. The thrill of seeing a young bull moose amble past my truck, or of glimpsing a coyote race past the trailer and, seconds later, a second coyote in hot pursuit. Of sitting out by my campfire and realizing that what sounded like a steady stream of traffic in the distance was actually the roll of the ocean, a mile away. Another night I was sitting outside after Tundra had gone to bed when I heard something large moving around in the forest right behind me. Yikes! I made a quick retreat into the trailer – visions of bears and bull moose prowling in my head.

Looking west to the highlands, where Tundra and I loved to explore.

When it rained for two days and two nights I sat at the table in the trailer and painted beach rocks – before that was a thing. The rain finally stopped and I emerged into a world transformed. The pond had risen into a vast lake and water was pouring in from a myriad of streams and freshets. This transformation has never ceased to thrill and amaze me.

The trailer wasn’t winterized, so come November 2004 I hooked it back up to Roadeo and Tundra and I headed down north, back to the hand-built house where I’d spent the winter of 2001/02 house and dog-sitting. I’d been on a year-long cross-country road trip, visiting all ten provinces and the Yukon. But that winter on Meat Cove Road was transformative. Cape Breton and her people captured my heart and my imagination. After I returned to Calgary I bought the piece of land I’d checked out a few times during my stay here. So while I had another great winter down north, reconnecting with old friends and making new ones, there was a tug on my heartstrings – Highland Holler was calling me.

That winter I spent endless hours sketching house plans: funky off-grid hippie houses with rainwater cisterns and wood-fired saunas. But how big? One story or two? Basement foundation or slab or frost wall or sonotubes? Conventional frame or logs or cob (straw and mud) or cordwood? And where to put it? There was lots of land, plenty of options. In fact, there were altogether too many options. So I began to think about a yurt, a portable tent-like dwelling that would go up quickly and could be moved later if need be. It wouldn’t be cheap, but a yurt would allow me to live full-time on my land sooner rather than later. And it would buy me time to decide what and where to build.

In May 2005 I hitched up the trailer and hauled it back up and over Cape Smokey and parked it in the Holler. That summer I drove back to Calgary with Tundra, sold my house, bought a cargo trailer, and loaded up the last of my stuff. I also spent time with my son and his lady and told them about my plan to live in a yurt. “For how long?” my son asked. “Oh, one to five years,” I said, as if it were a prison sentence. In fact, it would turn out to be eight. Eight years in a yurt.

The truck, the cargo trailer, and ‘Spot’ on board, getting ready to leave Calgary and drive back with the rest of my stuff. ‘Which way is Cape Breton again?’

So back we came, Tundra and I, from Calgary to Cape Breton again, this time with a cargo trailer in tow. I shifted our travel trailer home off the driveway and work began. I’d found an ideal site for the yurt but there were trees to be cut and cleared, brush to burn, a platform to build. I hired a local carpenter to build the platform and assisted with my trusty power drill, dreamy visions of yurt life dancing in my head. The yurt kit was due to arrive from Vancouver in September. It did not. The temperatures dropped and I gratefully accepted an offer to housesit down the road while I waited.

In the end it was snowing and blowing when friends and neighbours joined the carpenter and I in setting up the yurt. It was pretty deluxe – a 24′ diameter yurt with reflective insulation, canvas liner and a polyvinyl covering to keep the rain out. It had a 5′ diameter dome overhead for star gazing, moonbeam bathing, and cloud watching. I bought a wood-cook stove and a clever neighbour figured out how to attach the chimney to the soft-sided, vinyl-walled structure.

Yahoo! Me and Yurtle. Lots left to do but she’s up!

I finally moved in on December 28, 2005 and celebrated my 50th birthday in the yurt a couple of months later. Yurtle would be home for the next eight years, until February 7th, 2014.

Living in the yurt was like camping out in a big, luxurious tent. I was off-grid with no running water. I heated with wood and lit with kerosene lamps. I was too far back from the road to be plowed out, so I snowshoed in and out in winter, hauling in food and water. The yurt was easy enough to heat with the big wood-cook stove; but it didn’t hold the heat so it was bitterly cold on winter mornings. How cold? One morning my bedside water bottle was frozen solid. It was -10C inside. I learned to put the coffee water in the kettle the night before, since the spigot on the water jug would freeze overnight.

Tundra adored the yurt. It was just the right size and only one room so she could always keep an eye on me. It had three doors (the French doors did double-duty as windows) that opened onto a surrounding deck. She liked to ask me to let her out one door, then race around the deck to the door on the opposite side and ask to be let back in. Very funny, Tundra. She swam in the pond, explored the forest with me, romped in the snow, and rode alongside wherever I went. Tundra had a great few years here, but she was getting old and winding down. She died at age 16, a very ripe old age for a dog her size, but a hard loss for me.

Tundra’s cairn, usually well above the water line, but seen here with the pond in flood.

When I lived in the trailer, I dreamt of living in a yurt. While I lived in the yurt, I began dreaming of living in a cabin. I continued making sketches of my dreamhouse over the years, informed by my experiences in the yurt. The location shifted farther east, bit by bit. The funky hippie houses became more conventional as I accepted my own limitations. To wit, I am entirely useless at building anything. At all. I cannot build a bookshelf, let alone a house. So I would be paying someone else to build my house, and funky costs more.

The trailer, the yurt, a baseball dugout-turned-woodshed – and a whole mess of tarps!

But I knew that I liked one-room living and I loved living by the pond, in spite of the winter inconvenience. I also liked the simplicity of building from a kit, with all the materials and plans included. I finally settled on plan. What to build, where to build it, what material to build it from. A log-cabin kit on a basement foundation, above the high-water mark of the pond, facing south for winter sun, and a stone’s throw from the yurt.

Someone told me it would cost twice as much and take three times as long to build as I expected. ‘Hah! Not for me,’ I scoffed to myself. Well … it cost twice as much and took three times as long as I expected. There were obstacles, there were delays. I made decisions that added to the delays. I almost lost my mind over septic permits. I’d planned to stay off-grid but changed my mind and had to jump through endless hoops to bring power this far back into the woods. I almost froze after my big stove went into the house and my new small stove wasn’t sufficient to heat the yurt. But finally, on Feb. 7, 2014, I moved into my little log home.

The first few months I was startled by loud rifle-cracks in the night as the logs dried and checked (cracked) in the dry heat from the wood stove. For the first few years there were bolts to be tightened as the logs shrunk and settled. There was still lots of work to be done after I moved in, but it got done bit by bit over the years, and now, ten years later, the house is (mostly!) finished. It is a lovely abode in a marvelous location. It took a long time to make all those decisions, but I’m happy with my choices. I feel very lucky to live here, in this home, in this community, on this island.

I finally moved into my Home Sweet Home in Highland Holler!

This year, 2024, marks twenty years since I moved to Cape Breton and ten years since I moved into my log home. It’s been an amazing adventure so far, and now, on the cusp of the new year, I look back over those twenty years with gratitude. I don’t know how many more years I have ahead in this home or in this life, but every day is a gift.

Sue McKay Miller
December 30th, 2024

Happy New Year from Highland Holler!

Fabulous February

Okay, I’m biased. February is my birth month. I liked being a February baby, maybe because it’s an oddball, quirky month and I was an oddball quirky kid – a left-handed, redheaded tomboy. It’s a short month that gets the longest mention in that familiar rhyme.

Thirty days has September,
April, June, and November,
All the rest have thirty one
Save February at twenty eight
But leap year, coming once in four
February then has one day more.

‘I am a groundhog. Hear me squeak.’

And guess what? 2024 is a Leap Year, so we get to enjoy a whole extra day of this fabulous month. My birth month takes a lot of flack. People complain because it’s cold and snowy. They even complain about its name. Granted, it is a bit awkward. Feb-RU-ary? The hosts of ‘As It Happens’ on CBC always make fun of the ‘RU’ part. And I always mean to write a letter explaining that, according to Webster, Feb-yoo-wary is also an acceptable pronunciation. Me? I usually blend it together and mumble something like Feb-oo-ary.

Given how many times I’ve hear people dis February, I am dedicating this blog to celebrating February – however you say it. I usually try to use my own photos, but I’m making an exception for this exceptional month. Credits at the end of the blog.

Groundhog Day. What other month boasts such a silly ritual? It makes no sense. Especially in Canada where, except on the west coast, the idea of only six more weeks of winter in February is as hilarious as the idea that a rodent’s shadow can forecast the weather. And now it’s a movie. A movie that repeats. And repeats. Every Groundhog Day.

Chinese New Year is based on the lunar calendar and shifts around, but in 2024 it’s on February 10th. This is the Year of the Dragon and should be a colourful celebration. My son has Welsh blood, and the Welsh are also big on dragons. In fact, they like them so much they put one on their flag.

February is the month for the Winter Olympics. No Winter Olympics this year, but Calgary hosted the 1988 Winter Olympics and it was a whole lotta fun. My young son and I went to see the ski jumping and witnessed the debut of Eddie the Eagle. No one could appreciate the true distance these athletes flew until Eddie from England landed so far short that we were all astonished. Then we applauded and cheered. Eddie was dubbed ‘the Eagle’ and became a popular favourite. We admire winners, but we love underdogs. And speaking of underdogs, that was also the year of the Jamaican Bobsleigh team. Another February movie was born.

This is not Eddie the Eagle.

In 1990 Alberta became the first province to declare a statutory holiday in February. And it just so happened that it fell on my birthday that year. I was pretty chuffed. Don’t we all feel like we should have a holiday on our birthday? Since then many other provinces have followed suit. Now we have Heritage Day in Nova Scotia, and, as it happens, it falls on my birthday this year. Somehow it’s not quite as exciting now that I’m retired.

Celebrating my 50th in the yurt, complete with fiddlers, step dancers and (maybe a bit too much) Irish whiskey. That’s Tundra in the bottom left.

Valentine’s Day, on February 14th, is also less exciting for me now, at least in terms of getting cards and flowers and such. (Ah, there was a day …) But this day is very special for another reason – it’s the anniversary of my two favourite people. This day of love marks the years of love between them. And as anniversaries go, it’s an easy one to remember.

February has a few other anniversaries that are personally meaningful. Back in 2003, after a few months of negotiation, I finally bought my land in Cape Breton. By chance, the deal closed on my birthday – and what a fantastic birthday present it was! I moved onto the land in the summer of 2004. Ten years later, on Feb 7, 2014, I moved from my yurt into my comfy log home. Hard to believe that 2024 marks 10 years in my cozy cabin.

For winter haters, February can be abysmal. It can be the coldest and snowiest month of the year. But for winter lovers, February is the time to enjoy skiing, skating, sledding or snowshoeing, followed by a warm drink by a cozy fire. My favourite winter activity is tracking animals on snowshoes. I wrote about this in The Secret Lives of Animals. The snow reveals who is out and about. Snowshoes allow me to bushwhack through the forest following those tracks and find out where those animals came from and where they are going.

Like most children, I loved winter and had tons of fun in the snow. I also had the great good fortune to grow up skiing. My English father took up the sport and took my older brother and me skiing in the Rocky Mountains every Sunday, from opening day until the last of the spring skiing. Other kids had to go to church, we worshiped at the alter of the mountains. The highlight of the ski season was in February, when schools closed for Teachers Convention, giving us a four-day break. We’d meet up with my dad’s friend and his daughter and spend all four days skiing. We’d start in Kimberley, BC, and then drive down to Whitefish, Montana, to ski amongst the towering snow ghosts on Big White. In the evenings my friend Ann and I felt very sophisticated as we sipped our Shirley Temples.

The Miller family at Sunshine Village in Banff National Park, in the mid-’60’s. We weren’t quite as fuzzy and faded as this old photo suggests.

But winter isn’t all fun and games. It can be difficult and challenging. When the third nor’easter in a week dumps a load of wet heavy snow, when we get weary of toting firewood to keep the stove going, when vehicles are buried and roads are treacherous. And then there’s the short days and those long nights. That’s where February, while it may be cold and snowy, has a special pick-me-up for winter-weary folk – we reach the midpoint between winter solstice and spring equinox.

The Gaels celebrate this occasion on February 1st with the traditional festival of Imbolc, also known as St. Brigid’s Day. In 2024 the midpoint falls on February 3rd. And while it’s true that the days start getting a wee bit longer after winter solstice, it’s in February that I really notice the days stretching out and the sun getting higher. In my yurt I would mark the day when the sun would get high enough to shine through the overhead dome. The yurt was like a mini Stonehenge, marking seasonal changes within its circle. I still track the northward progression of the sun by watching where it sets behind the highlands. This photo was taken the eve of February 1st.

The sun sets a little farther north each day as we head towards the spring equinox.

On clear nights in February I see the winter constellation Orion heading for the hills in the west as Leo rises in the east, heralding the news that spring, while not here yet, is coming. I once read this phrase about February in the Farmer’s Almanac: ‘Winter’s back is broken‘. That’s how it feels to me. It may be the month of the full Snow Moon, but the days are longer, the sun is higher, and while there is almost certainly a lot more than six weeks of winter to go, it’s time to embrace the winter wonderland knowing that it won’t last forever.

So strap on your snowshoes or skates, or maybe just bundle up for a bracing walk. Then enjoy a hot toddy or hot chocolate by the fire and immerse yourself in that big fat book you’ve been meaning to read. Put on a pot of soup or start a jigsaw puzzle or kiss a groundhog. February is fabulous, but it’s short – so don’t miss a minute!

Sue McKay Miller
February 2nd, 2024

p.s. What did I forget? Let me know a few of your favourite things about February in the comments below.

My driveway in February 2019. Sometimes the road looks long, but we’ll get there in the end!

Photos from pixel.com: Groundhog by Oleg Mikhailenko; Chinese dragon by Vlad Vasnetsov; Welsh flag by Lisa Fotios; Ski jumper by Todd Trapani.